There’s no good reason to wait until the first day of 2011 to make changes in our lives and yet it seems reassuring that with a new year will come new (and, perhaps, more) opportunities, good health, happiness, success, fortune and confidence. While these are the same desires we should aspire to achieve all year, there is a certain mental comfort in knowing that all of the struggles, disappointments, frustrations and pain from the previous year will be washed away allowing us to start anew and hope for a better outcome. But I don’t want the struggles, disappointments, frustrations and pains of 2010 to vanish completely – I need their traces to remain in order to propel me forward and remind me of how far I’ve actually come.
I’ve accomplished a lot in 2010 despite some physical ailments and emotional obstacles and I believe I’ve grown into myself a great deal more. I still have a visceral fear of failure (really, who doesn’t?) and all the unknowns in my future, but I’m getting better at managing these fears constructively. It’s easy to say that I’m optimistic for 2011, that all I have been planning for and working toward will provide the clarity I think I need but so much is out of my control. All I can do is be hopeful that karma will finally show its face in my favor.
The last post of 2010 – a year on this blog that saw many different topics, photos and discussions, none of which would have been possible without your participation and support. Wishing everyone a New Years Eve full of reflection, love, optimism and friendship. A l’année prochaine…
{For my other New Years post, check out “Learning from the French: a 2011 Resolution“}